Speechless

You looked into my eyes and said, "Sorry,"
You said you'll do anything to accept your apology.
I was statued in my place, unaware of what to do,
I didn't know how to tell you, "It's not true."

In your eyes, I could still see hope,
That filled you with satisfaction, helping you cope.
I didn't want to dim the sparkle in your eyes,
By bringing you to the reality of bitter lies.

You spoke with certainty and complete honesty,
Every word coming out of you, making me feel guilty,
I told your wishing star that it's not me,
It answered me saying that I am everything you want me to be.

Losing your way around the dark of denial,
I wanted to save you but not burn you with fire,
Watching you drown in my pearly ocean of innocence and purity,
I wanted to bring you to shore in safe sanity.

"I TOLD MY WISHING STAR ALL ABOUT YOU. YOUR WALK, YOUR TALK, YOUR BREATH IS SO TRUE.
AND WHEN MY WISHING STAR TOLD ME THE TRUTH.
I FOUND MYSELF NOT HAVING MUCH TO LOSE.
SO PLEASE FORGIVE ME FOR WHAT I'VE DONE.
MY HEART ACHED, SO I RESTED IT WITH A GUN!"

I felt so coldly alone,
As I read this on his gravestone!