Shelter from despair

Not sure whats happened
but i know it can't be good
i thought if i showed i didn't care
then maybe someone would

but once again i was proved wrong
hope seems to fade away
it takes constant self-medication
just to make it through the day

one more puff off that joint please
my hand just wont stop shaking
one more hit of that pipe i beg you
my heart just wont stop breaking

that single puff makes me shudder
for it numbs all my pain
it keeps me on the edge of reason
it keeps me semi-sane

i exhale the smoke and it seems
all my pain vanishes in thin air
this is my solution for my broken heart
this is my shelter from despair