He Wins

Whose that girl,
That I see,
In the mirror,
Oh, no that can't be me.

A tear falls down,
I wipe it away,
I whisper to myself,
No wonder, he didn't want to stay.

I shake my head,
It's hard to ignore,
I wipe my tears,
As someone knocks on my door.

"Are you alright?"
"I'm Fine" I say,
She closes the door,
As i look the other way.

She doesn't know,
How much i have to hide,
She will never know,
That in her i can't confide.

I stare at the image,
Looking back at me,
I whisper to myself,
No wonder he didn't want to be with me.

Another tear falls down,
Another one follows,
I look at my reflection,
Wondering; why do i feel so hollow?

Why have I changed so much,
That I can't even see,
Who the person is,
Staring back at me?

What happened to make me,
Tear myself apart,
And cause much more pain,
Than a broken heart.

I look at my arm,
I feel the pain,
Of cutting myself,
Again and again.

I feel horrified,
Because this is something i normally wouldn't do,
But then again,
I have changed from the girl i once knew.

While i cut, i feel no remorse,
I hide it away, so no one knows I've run off course.
I hide the pain, sadness and fear,
For i only begun at the start of this year.

It used to be so easy, it didn't control my life,
But now every night i seem to turn to my knife.
Who is that girl,That I see,
In the mirror, Oh, no that can't be me.

A tear falls down, my face you see,
And now I can't remember who i used to be,
I clutch at the blade, as the light goes dim,
This is my final day, so i guess he wins.

**i don't think its very good, but at the moment its just how i feel and i dnt kno how to explain:(**