Why couldn't you stop

Why couldn't you stop,
popping those pills,
taking one after one after one,
didn't you know this would happen,
the doctors told you,
if you don't stop soon your gonna die,
you won't make it another year,
and look what happened.

You left me alone,
for your own addiction,
you pushed me to the side,
acting as if the pills were your daughter,
you gave them your attention,
and neglected me.

I understand addictions are hard,
your father died from them,
you always promised my brother and i,
you'll never do the same thing to us
that he did to you,
but you broke it,
you let your addiction consume your life,
it ended up killing you.

Why couldn't you stop,
wasn't seeing me smile enough,
wasn't your family crumbling to pieces enough
to open your eyes,
wasn't our tough love making you decide,
pills or us enough,
i guess not,
you didn't stop,
i don't know if you wanted too.

Your addiction,
made your heart weak,
soma such a strong muscle relaxer,
being your death sentence,
wasn't the constant car accidents,
you losing your family,
have two duis on your record enough,
why couldn't you stop.

Suicide attempts,
you almost succeeded once,
you were pronounced legally dead,
but the doctors managed to revive your body,
bring you back to life,
and even that didn't make you see the light,
two weeks spent in a mental institution,
an intervention,
nothing stopped you.

Why couldn't you stop,
didn't you wanna see me get married,
see your grandchildren,
see me fall in love,
start my life,
didn't you always promise to be there for me,
but you left me,
alone in this world,
you were my universe,
my best friend,
not just my mom.

I miss you mom,
i hated your addiction,
it got the best of you,
took the most important person to me away,
left me momless,
broke my heart,
made me the coldest person,
just tore me apart.

Why couldn't you stop,
thats all i ever asked from you,
i begged for you to quit,
i begged with tears pouring out my eyes on my knees
for you to go to rehab,
to stop everything,
i didn't wanna lose you,
that was my biggest fear,
and look what happened.

I don't hate you mom,
i never could,
despite your addiction,
your my hero,
i just wish you had stopped,
why couldn't you stop,
wasn't my love enough.