Focal Point

by Lioness   Feb 13, 2012


How was I to know
that you would remain
my focal point.

Even when the
seasons ended and your
love for me had died,

like the leaves
of autumn -

You were still my
summertime.

How was I to know
that I would need to
hurt myself more than
you would hurt me?

A sweep of the hair,
a kiss on the forehead -
all appear so distant to you
though it feels like
only yesterday.

I want to escape
from this grasp that
you seem to have
on me -

but,

If I am destined to
suffocate, it is
better by my own
hands,

than yours.

The only way to
drown out my pain
is to drown myself
in something else.

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  • 10 years ago

    by Rania

    Oh, For gods sake, I need to sleep! it's 2 am, and I knew once I comment the 1st poem by you, the drill will take over!

    This is simply, awwesome! where to start...
    The inability to get over someone, I think it kills you every single day.

    the paradox in this poem, so much like the situation itself, to love someone, when you hate them. someone said, "it's not how much u love them, when you love them, it's how much you love them, when you hate them"

    The desire here of getting rid of his power on you, and here i mean the power of the memories..or the hurt he cause/causing.
    for you, he WAS the hope, and IS (now) everything...killing the hope, in you...

    I also sense this desire for dignity, self respect, or "Ego" this call for giving it a push up, yet..you're only trying to find something ellse to drown you, rather than him. tho the same ending..but you are focusing on the reasons..
    which is ...indeed your "focal point""

    wow did you even notice that ?.. you kill me !
    HATS OFF< BOOTS OFF!..all is off, when your poetry is ON.

    You were still my
    summertime.
    ^
    beautiful :]

    How was I to know
    that I would need to
    hurt myself more than
    you would hurt me?
    ^
    Typical (in meaning, not in content..as "in emotions" = I relate )

    A sweep of the hair,
    a kiss on the forehead -
    all appear so distant to you
    though it feels like
    only yesterday.

    ^
    simple, yet deep, true, innocent, and above alll..sad.

    If I am destined to
    suffocate, it is
    better by my own
    hands,

    than yours.

    ^
    powerful!!!!!!!!!!!!! VERY

    The only way to
    drown out my pain
    is to drown myself
    in something else

    ^^
    that blew the hell out of me...really, you are such a very inspiring poet.

  • 10 years ago

    by Ronel McCarthy

    Lovely as always.........good to focus on something else to let go of the pain-to drown out the pain .

  • 10 years ago

    by Mostafa

    I can feel the anguish, so touching !
    well done : )

  • 10 years ago

    by Abissah Junior

    Wow..then drawn in my heart then..hehe..gud...

  • 10 years ago

    by Karla

    Liz,

    I felt your pain. Such a heartfelt poem. I loved it.

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