By The Person I Love

" I gotta figure out what I want..."
Is all it took to bring tears down my face,
to start cracking every piece of my heart,
making me feel every ounce of pain from the
first time my heart was broken.

Almost five months have gone by since I started
dating my marine boyfriend, one more month and I can see him,
or so i thought...
come to find out, he doesn't know what he wants.

Putting my face into the pillow, soon its soaked with tears,
finally thinking I have a good guy, someone who truly
treasures my heart, but once again I was wrong,
Will my luck never change? Am I always meant to be so close
to finding pure love, but have it taken away at the last minute?

Here I sit, slowly slipping into an emotionless person,
wanting nothing more then to finally be happy,
to be able to run into his arms and kiss him,
trying to hold back my tears, to remain strong,
when inside my heart is falling apart,
once again by the person I love.

- Just a venting poem. not good at all.-