I am ashamed

by Dagmar Wilson   May 29, 2012


Crumpled paper showing grease spots at the corners
scrolling through endless pages hoping to find
the definition of being "ashamed"

Not reading the bible get to understand the word
my eyes can't see what the holy book is saying

My depression has crashed
like m&m's, popping prescription pills
causing more problems to my poor body

Where love is concerned
my graziness has drove him insane

While others are hanging on tied to life
I am willfully trying to end mine

Writing was never my thing
just sharing my experience
sadness has become dull and old
I am constantly in the hole

Up in age well able to give advice
slowly exceeding its limits

The dark however pschosis has not left
enough to write a book

I am ashamed and not even sure
what made me write this

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  • 11 years ago

    by L

    Depression and anxiety,
    It's tough to deal with those two specially if they are both combined. But it can be done.
    Most of the times, we just need to do some stretching, I forget that myself. But when I do stretch, I start feeling better. The tension that accumulates slowly goes away, not all of it but the majority. And that takes away part of the anxiety as for depression, I'm not sure, but I guess being surrounded by people and talking about it. Getting involve in different activities that you like and not being alone can help.

  • 11 years ago

    by Maple Tree

    You wrote this because it came from the heart, and sometimes those feelings will overpower the mind and force the writer to write... because thats how it happens... I agree with all the above has stated, I do believe this is your best poem to date. This was marvelous Dagmar!

  • 11 years ago

    by Purple Rose

    I have gone through the same thing so we can feel ashamed together. The only difference between me and you is the definition of "ashamed"-I looked up something different :(

    Your emotions that you put into this poem is astounding in my opinion-I felt every word in my soul. The part that I can relate to the most is the fifth stanza (or section).

    I just wanted to praise you on your courage for writing this. I have a feeling that it must have been a relief for you to finally let this out. Another thing that I wanted to let you know is that there is no need to feel ashamed. May God bless you and yours.

    5/5 :)

  • 11 years ago

    by sun spots

    No need to be ashamed of what you write down. It takes a lot of courage to write these things, and on that merit alone you get top marks from me.

  • 11 years ago

    by Max

    Hmm this is an amazing write
    i love it some times we dont know why we wrote some things
    Maybe feelings in us want to be released
    Or just an image poped up in mind
    And some times we just write random ideas then find them connected
    Overall great read I enjoyed alot contains lots of darkness and saddness in it
    5/5 keep writing =)

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