My Heart's Desire

Watching the clock
Seconds ticking by
Minutes flashing passed
Moments we could have had
But now we can never take back

Waiting for you
I let you in
Now there's tears in my eyes
An hour has come and gone
Again you stood me up
Pain coming from my heart in attacks
I thought you could be the one
Please tell me you can still be
Please tell me you want to be

I try to scrub your name off of my hand
The 'I', '<3' or love and your name I want to erase
Wanting it to also be off of my heart
To clean the ink as well as the blood mess
All over the floor from my heart
The dagger that sliced it open
Is still being held in your hand
It didn't go too deep
The part where only you ditched me
But it stabs far in that you couldn't make time for me
Again
Do you have any idea how that makes me feel
You never have the time for me
You never care enough to try and set a timer
So that you don't forget about me
I'm tired of excuses
I'm looking for improvement
Reassurance that you won't leave
And that you really love me
I'm not worth the room in your day
Making me feel worthless
Unwanted
Unthought-of
And unloved

I set my plans aside
Move things around for you
I try not to cry these tears for you again
Every time we agree on a time
You make promises
Speak reassurance you'll be there
Then you never show
Hardly ever you come through
I meant everything I ever said to you
I whisper "I love you"
But you are not here to hear my words
Or witness my falling tears
Nor remove the splinters from my heart

(name thought up of from Allhallow's Eve)