you'd be able to move on.

by Poet on the Piano   Sep 22, 2019


can I be silent, tonight?
look how you laugh without me,
even the moon shines brighter
when I am absent.
I'm not needed
and every day, I dream about
change
yet continue to nurse the
fear within me.
I keep my options open,
options that you once said
should never be conceivable,
all because I am seduced
by the idea of invisibility -
eternal disappearance.

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  • 3 weeks ago

    by (Linda) Leavers

    Wow, relatable.

    The familiarity of our draining mental patterns - versus the yearning to achieve the dream of healthful boundaries, open communication, trust, consistent confidence.

    I really love this. Sending you vibrations of joy, internal peace, and self reflection.

  • 4 weeks ago

    by Kitty Cat Lady

    It always hurts when someone moves on from you before you're ready and natural to want to hide away to lick your wounds. But you'll come out of that slump fighting because you know you are needed and you're right to have hope and open options. The next chapter will be waiting for you when you're ready and in the meantime, you express your pain beautifully and share it with us, we'll all appreciate it and you :-) x
    =^.^=

    • 3 weeks ago

      by Poet on the Piano

      Such a lovely, hopeful comment. Appreciate you reading and your thoughtfulness
      Hugs!

  • 4 weeks ago

    by stormingdance (Jessica)

    Perhaps their heart is lighter just by having you in the world. Depression/fear/sadness is a big blind fold to those who love us. Beautiful imagery, love your poem.

    • 3 weeks ago

      by Poet on the Piano

      Thank you, Jessica. That's quite accurate! I always like to think and remind others that mental illness tells us we shouldn't have this or that, that we're not worthy of this person, and often it defies the truth others say directly. That they care about us. That we are loved.

  • 4 weeks ago

    by Star

    I often question why a poem is in that specific category, but that ends up helping into going deeper within the poem. Getting used to being unnoticed to the point that it does not bother anymore. So raw in emotion, your speciality !!!

  • 4 weeks ago

    by Kakera

    I love this. It (obviously) resonates with me on a profound level. But it doesn't chill me necessarily like Ben said it did, because I sort-of feel that there's still a hope for a better future expressed in the unspoken lines of this piece. Mainly, when you say that you "keep my options open" and "all because I am seduced by the idea...", tells me that you still have a lot left to lose even if you don't say it out loud. You are seduced by the idea, but you haven't given in to despair yet. The despair is just tempting you so far. Which surely is scary enough on its own, but to me, you haven't lost the war against your darkest thoughts yet if that's where you're at.

    Great poem. Love it.

    • 4 weeks ago

      by Kakera

      Can I just add though, that even if the premise of your poem were true, that whoever the title refers to would be able to move on, that isn't actually the only truth to be found here.

      Even if that person "would be able to move on", I can promise you that there's someone - probably a lot of people - who couldn't. The contextual situation of those relationships might be very different, but what does that matter, really? If I start interpreting this through the lens of heartbreak and love, I stand by my initial analysis that there's unspoken hope left in this piece.

      If that's the true lens through which this poem should be read (and there are several mind you), then hell yeah keep your options open. Maybe you will find out that you've already overlooked someone in your life who adores you so much their world would break apart if you gave in to the seduction of eternal disappearance.

      Wouldn't it suck so hard if that person you never even considered might love you so much that their world would fall apart without you, ended up just slipping by you unnoticed? Dear, you are worthy of everything, an entire world just for you included!

    • 3 weeks ago

      by Poet on the Piano

      Kakera, you have such beautiful, profound perspective.
      I love this.
      I think, subconsciously (or perhaps consciously, who knows?) I made that title sort of not believing in it 100%. Because what does "moving on" mean exactly? That doesn't mean the person is forgotten or not remembered or cared for still in their absence.

      Despite depression trying to convince me otherwise, I have always believed, even if I can't always acknowledge it like I ought to, that we all impact someone. Even if we're not deliberately missed by someone, just by being human we affect others.

      So yes, people move on, but they still carry grief and sorrow with them. Even if you are not the "priority" or "meaning" to someone's life, we don't simply forget or throw away memories of someone who has maybe given us reason to smile once or twice.

      Thank you so much for all of your thoughts, always <3

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