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The sun broke down like honey drips
warming out my soul.
Soaked in sweetness but bare to my soul,
I couldn't move.

I devoured the globe around,
closed my eyes and sniffed the sky.
It was so silent there outside
all the noise hid deep inside.

I poured out the beast in me,
spit some stars and some moons
and as my breath kissed your sighs
I blew some wind in your skies.

Clouds unfolded
and I ran down your shoulders,
on the little mountains above your head.
Beneath your shores, and at your plea
my roots stemmed beneath your feet.

You stood firm by my side,
sometimes I never understood,
but I know I have realized,
unlike my words, from which you escape,
this world had always challenged you.

Today you looked for a phrase,
you searched my lips and my palms,
my eyes were shut and my poker face
alas was of little help,

you ran the fields until you slept.
but in your dreams I came along
I touched your skin with a silent song

and because I know you wanted more,
you wanted all which I locked within,
the earth, the sea, and the galaxy
the scribbles and the gibberish.

every broken promise and my final wish,
everything I hid in me,
you wanted all my poetry
all the love and and all the pain
so I left behind 29-20 notes
on which I only wrote your name.