Shelter In Place

by Brenda   Apr 19, 2020


I eat too much
I sleep too much
I watch
too much
TV
-
True statement...
-
This flight or fight
I've done neither-
I have hidden away
attempting to keep busy
fooling no-one
especially myself-
-
I've been a good citizen-
sheltering in place
venturing out only when needed to-
donning a mask and gloves
hyperventilating the entire time-
afraid for myself
afraid for the workers
who expose themselves daily -
-
I thought I was
stronger than this-
realizing I am not...
That fake bravado
"I can do this"
" Shooot, easy peasy "
trying to calm down
my inner crazy
that's climbing the walls
right now-
It's not working....
-
Feeling guilty -
guilty for feeling this way-
Hell, I've got it good!
Plenty of food, nice house,
loving husband
who makes me laugh-
-
So many are struggling -
yet I'm A-ok...
-
Then why do
I just
want
to eat?
to sleep?
to watch
too much
TV?

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  • 3 months ago

    by Mr. Rious

    This is very relatable! Not everyone is as fortunate as the others! A little empathy can go a long way! Stay safe and healthy!

    Best regards,
    Mr. Rious

    • 3 months ago

      by Brenda

      Thank you so much! I really appreciate your comments-

  • 3 months ago

    by Tony Grannell

    Hello Brenda,

    Plenty of food, nice house, loving husband who makes me laugh, so, why am I climbing the walls. Adrift in the mayhem of quarantine, like sailing a storm whilst trying to keep calm. Maybe I shouldn't have but I found parts of this very funny. Your honesty and poetic acumen are to be greatly admired. Very well done, indeed.

    Kind regards, Tony.

    • 3 months ago

      by Brenda

      Tony, thank you so much! I loved your words! I am trying to find some humor each day. Thank you also for your praises, I appreciate you-

  • 3 months ago

    by Poet on the Piano

    Brenda, I feel so connected to you and your poetry. And honestly, I have been having those similar feelings. My life has not been terribly affected like others, yet there's still a heaviness. A weariness to know the world is going through this. To know we can only do our part and it doesn't seem like enough. Then comparing, seeing others do more, when the news may highlight the neighbors or "heroes", and we feel useless. But sometimes, it's enough to just "be". With my own journey in self-care and forgiveness, I've realized that yes, others do have it worse, but that does not mean I need to feel even more shame or blame myself. I can always be more grateful, of course, but that doesn't mean I have to silence my pain always because someone may be hurting in worse ways.

    All the love and good thoughts to you. Be gentle with yourself, you deserve that <3

    • 3 months ago

      by Brenda

      Awww, thank you so much Mary Anne! I too feel connected to your poetry. It's a beautiful thing isn't it? You nailed it, btw.. feeling like I should be doing more, guilty because I don't. Relieved in a way that I'm not expected to. Hugs to you dear girl-thank you for being a part of my world. Stay safe-

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