Haunted

everyone thinks that I'm all better
that I'm all healed up now

reality is I just paint over the wounds
that way they look like scars

letting the parasites eat my insides
Because I feel like I deserve the pain

some days I actually can convince myself
if I just close my heart I won't feel anymore

then the image of you pops up in my head
the damage, the pain, all comes back to me

remembering the sadness in your eyes
somehow breaks me to pieces all over again

All I ever wanted to do was save you
I wish I could have taken all your pain

now I'm stuck painting on a smile
because I don't want to burden anyone

lost all alone in this scary world
where I'm not even sure if I trust myself