Absent from my life.

Flashback flashback

But things aren't bad now
There's no threat
Why torture myself?

I deserve to be put back there
Do I want to go back to how it was?

To be able to say
"look, I have a reason to run away now"

Yet I have her support
And I have his support
And they tell me all the time
"You can do anything, be anything"

But I don't think I can

I don't want that power
I don't want those choices

I don't want to do anything
or be anyone

I don't want to be...

I want to be swept away
To have someone eventually find me
Washed up on the shore
And carry me to a home

That isn't mine

A home I never knew

A home I never could imagine
In my wildest dreams

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