Broken Reflection

I take off my clothes
And in the shower I go
Turn the taps on slightly
So the water begins to flow

I stand there for a minute
I feel the coldness against my skin
Water splashes all over my body
I'm so dead deep within

I grab a razor
And drag it so slow
Against this torn & broken skin
Then the blood begins to flow

I sink to the floor
My arms wrapped around my knees
Bare and naked
Knowing ill never be free

I watch the blood
Swirl and wash down the drain
But my body is numb
I cant feel the pain

And I sit there alone
The water washing away
This crimson blood of mine
That I spill more each day

And in my mind
Every thought in my head
Tells me I shouldn't be afraid
Because I'm already dead

I pull myself up
Leaving bloody hand-prints on the wall
My knees buckle beneath me
I feel so weak I might fall

As the droplets of water
Drip and fall across my face
And I feel adrenaline
Through my veins begin to race

The pain now tears through me
But i do not cry
Ive run out of tears
I just wish i could die

I get out of the shower
Stare at my reflection in the glass
That bright, happy girl
Now a victim of the past

I breathe a sigh
This pathetic person is me
That happy girl you once knew
You'll never again see