PAIN!

My life is going crazy
my thoughts are becoming hazy
I'm slowly loosing my mind
I'll soon be gone in a matter of time
I can't seem to control this
it;s just a crazy bliss
i don't want this stuff to happen again
but darkness is becoming my new best friend
i used to be so happy
now I'm always feeling so crappy
death took away my good friend; Ben
and now my life seems to be coming to an end
this pain; no one can stop it
this pain won't ever go away won't ever quit
i know i said i hate turning to cutting
but that's the only think that seems to help me
to see the pain in my blood flowing
to see my pain finally going!!

( plz comment)