Alone.

I'm alone in every single way
Even when I'm in a crowd
I still feel utterly unknown
Like a floating black cloud.

Even when I'm around you
You still can't hear my cries
Because no one understands
How all of me wants to die.

It's not just a longing phase
This pain isn't going away
I've restled my whole childhood
Trying to feel normal in a way.

Sometimes it's just better to leave
Because life isn't what it is
I'm sick of trying to believe
That there's nothing here to miss.

I'm tired of always being wrong
Of always feeling ashamed
For everything that I do
And being the one to blame.

Life seems to be unfair every time
I never get a second try
To go outside and find a reason
To this endless lie.

These insights of my world
Are just too hard to bare
This feeling is wearing out
And I don't need you to care.

I'm sick of this darkened earth
Of this sad and grey world
That never seems to flourish
From this hopeless little girl.

I don't long for my future
I don't want to look ahead
To see what it holds for me
Because I'd rather be dead.

It's such a sad-felt pity
For being so alone
In a place to be safe
Where feelings can be shown.

I'm not sure when my good-bye is
All I know is this pain isn't going away
And because of my darkened life
I'm alone in every single way.