How can i tell them?

How are you? Are you OK?
I hate it when people ask
‘Yes, just fine’ I answer happily
They can’t see the pain I mask

How can I tell them the truth?
The fact I’m lost, sad and alone
Dreading each day a little more
It just sounds like one big moan

How can I tell them I miss them?
When they expect me to move on
Stop living in the past,
Just imagine we are gone

How can I tell them I cry each night?
When I can’t sleep, I cry instead
My heart is full of pain and anger
The tears just soak my bed

How can I tell them I hate it so much?
When they all seem so cheerful
Their worlds so bright and happy
While mines dreary, dark and dull

They tell me they miss me
Yet I don’t believe it is true
They’ve got friends and family
When they start feeling blue

How can I tell them my wish?
The wish that I was dead
The sadness is driving me crazy
Its mucking up my head

I want my nightmare over
For the bubble to be burst
For things to be how they were
Before we moved away

My parents don’t know this
How much pain I’m in
Telling them would kill them
Instead I live in sin

so i carry on each day
living my own lie
keepign fears safe in side
and saying im okay.

*please comment-i know the endings not very good but i didn't know what else to put*