My Reflection

by BleedingAngel   Feb 27, 2005


I look in the mirror and pull my fat
I dont want to like this anymore
The sight makes me sick and sad
I would die if I gain more
I wanna reach my goal weight
I wanna see every one of my ribs
I know its not to late
cause yesterday I felt my hips
I want to disappear from the world
I dont want any body to see me
not until I'm the skinniest girl
wont you just let me be
I know I'm not good enough
thats what he say
so now food is all I'm thinking of
he created me this way
Every time I eat I feel so damn guilty
and later it all comes up
he knows and cant even look at me
but I cant make it stop
i am this way
because of what he say
doesn't matter who I'm with
so now I just wanna be skinny and disappear
I'm tired of living like this
and eating is my biggest fear
until I can see every one of my ribs.

Copyright 2005 - Sabrina Stelmach

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  • 18 years ago

    by *liZ*

    i've read this before... I remember that ending... totally feel it....:(

  • 19 years ago

    by *liZ*

    Ya feel it completely... COMPLETELY!!

  • 19 years ago

    by Hayley

    i used to be anorexic, i used to starve myself for weeks at a time, then when i did eat i'd feel so angry at myself and gag it back up, so i know how you feel, your poems are so good. you are very talented.hopeflly you still arnt anorexic, screw what the guy says, mine used to say that too and the funny thing is, i was only 110 pounds when they said it. just keep writing, i wish you luck.hugs n love-hayley

  • 19 years ago

    by katie!

    Wow, I really feel this poem....I can relate to your feelings and emotions perfectly you are a great writer well done