Living?

Whats the point of living
if our just gonna die,
My time is coming up real soon
so please try not to cry,
I'm leaving this world
to be in peace,
have no worries for me
cause in mine its the least,
I want to get it over
and finish it now,
I want the pain to last and hurt
so please someone tell me how,
A slow death
is what I want and need,
So I can sit there and watch
myself bleed,
Drip drop
it's on the floor,
Splish splash
I need some more,
Now the ground is covered
in blood from wall to wall,
All of a sudden there is a loud crash
cause you just heard me fall,
Now I'm on the ground
all alone and weak,
I would love to tell you how I feel
but now I cannot speak,