Red Rose

Sorry its so long.. i just got the feeling to write and thats what came out.. tell me if its good or not please!! thanks..

No I’m not clean but I’m not ready to be
sorry you cant stop me from being what I believe
you may call me a freak you may say I’m insane
but I’m just a girl that needs to ease her pain
So yeah I do cut and yeah I love my blade
I’m sorry you cant stop me and that you cant heal my pain
I don’t need you to help me I don’t need you to cry
I know what I’m doing now but I’m not ready to die
You can stand back and watch I’ll show you every slice
but don’t try to pick up the pieces I don’t need you to be nice
I’ve been hurt before from people just like you
people who think they adore the girl they never knew
Yeah I’m pushing you away so please give me my space
I wont do any thing crazy like try and leave this place
I feel like I’m in a dream world floating so far away
it is just like a drug addiction guides my way
You don’t have to feel sorry or wish that things would change
I’ll still cut my wrist tonight just like I do every day
Yeah it does sound painful and yeah it sometimes bleeds
but it makes my life blissful because it calms my every need
You wish I wouldn’t do it I wish you wouldn’t cry
I guess we will never get what we wish for deep inside
You say my lives so dark now there is no color all around
well every night I add some red to this crazy black and white town
so maybe I laugh when I show you my wrist I’m just proud of what I have done
no one understand the power between my finger and my thumb
you cry like something is wrong like you didnt know it all along
but you have always known what I do when I finally get home
you scream for me to stop now you say there is to much blood
you wish you had a string to pull to undo what I just done
well sorry to disappoint you but there is not rewind
you cant just pick up a remote and magically turn back time
You say I feel so cold now to me I feel just fine
if only you knew I do this all the time
I’m becoming an expert starting to get bored
maybe I’ll start to cut where the blood will come much more
I don’t need your pity I don’t need your help
so please just leave me here so I can live my hell
I promise I’ll save you a seat if hell is really real
because alcohol does the same to you but that you will never tell
so leave me now and take your own advice
someone needs you here so please don’t say your final goodbye
don’t drink the world goodbye tonight