NUmb (Anesthetized)

This numb feeling
Is cutting me deep
My joy, it is stealing
Still making me weep
I feel so unwanted
A waste of your time
And that's how I've been so daunted
To write this horrible rhyme

From now, I am distraught
Unloved and unneeded
Hurt a bloody lot
My paranoia left me jaded
I'll cut my wrist
And leave a book
With an awful twist
Covered by a bloody look