Where ever you are

This one is for you
And you know who you are
See you were
The coolest person I knew
Somewhat of me loved you
And the person you are
You were mysterious
And brilliant
I couldn’t figure you out
You were so beautiful
And still are
I just want you to know that
But again my drinking got in the way
I threw away an awesome thing
On something I don’t even remember
Your art is beautiful
It hangs on my wall
And your heart is even more
You helped me when I was down
And I threw all that away
I am sorry for everything
I don’t even know how I can truly show that
But I really am
See you honestly meant so much to me
I miss your heart and your art
You inspired me to write
And I thank you for that
You got me away from some of the stupid shit I did
But now I don’t even know you
And that is one of my biggest regrets
I lost you
As my friend
And even more
I am sorry
I just hope you can see
That the person I was then
Wasn’t me