Die For Real

All these words
Are overflowing with pain
All stabbed into my heart
With swords of hurt Ive been slain

Theres something inside me
That pulls me beneath the surface
Theres something in my mind that keeps killing me
Consuming me it makes me nervous

I stand beside my own dark reflection
Its haunting me in my mind
Murdering my only hope
Which I can no longer find

Im a confused hybrid
Diverse from all the normal
Im a mixture of all the different negatives
Dead in my complex world

Im surprised Im still standing
After disappearing so many times
After being assassinated endlessly
And taking away my many lives

Its getting old now
I want an honest feel
Im sick of dying in my mind
I want to die for real