It's my life that been in vain

Death has been on my mind,
and its seems the best way out,
for meaning and the purpose,
Of life has come to doubt

The pain and the darkness,
is consuming my very being,
and any spec of light,
Is appearing to be fleeing

I hate the world around me,
and I hate what I've become,
a creature without feeling,
and i know that i am scum

Everyday i get closer,
from going over the edge,
ending all the pain,
and walking of a ledge

The darkness will never vanish,
for i am bound to burn,
as i am full of sin,
its a spot rightly earn

Its a spot I will soon fulfill,
for i can not bare the pain,
this world is worse than hell,
For its my life that been in vain