For the heart thats black as coal

I'm constantly afraid of
What I will become
A creature full of anger
A creature that is scum

He use to hurt my mother
He use to make her cry
He use to make us scared
I use to wish he'd die

The anger building up
Its eating me inside
The past I can't elude
No longer can I hide

He now uses drugs
He now makes me scared
He now is a monster
His anger in now shared

I thought that i had escaped
the hate.. the anger.. the lies
but its still inside me
no matter what I try

I've tried to be good
but its just a lie
Ive already hurt someone
for reasons i don't know why

I'm turning into a monster
Its out of my control
I ask for gods forgiveness
for the heart thats black as coal