Never Good Enough (for myself)

by dArKgOtHiCgIrL   Nov 29, 2005

Fading from reality to a world all my own,
To a side of me I've never shown.
Everyone sees a girl, happy and free,
But it is a useless girl that I see.
Far from perfection, failing everyday,
So hard to explain my thoughts in disarray.
The only control I have is what I eat,
Against my mind I have to always compete.
I'm slowly losing my control more and more,
My hunger pains I must learn to ignore.
Filled with hope I will survive,
Day after day so hard I strive.
Strive to finally reach my goal,
Strive to make this shattered girl whole.
But it seems I'm slowly wasting away,
I try to speak but words I just can't say.
I can't let anyone know of my pain,
I'll fail again, silent I must remain.
I thought I had control but now it's controlling me,
Through my black tears I can no longer see.
I didn't mean for it to go this far,
I didn't mean for this to leave a scar.
A scar on my body I can no longer hide,
A scar showing that I'm slowly dying inside.
I want to see bones but am afraid,
Afraid at how quickly away I can fade.
I thought thin was the answer to all my prayers,
But I know it's not as everyone stares.
They will soon see how I'm wasting away,
No longer in this world do I want to stay.
Everyone sees beauty where I see disgrace,
I look in the mirror hating my face.
I may be good enough for everyone else,
But will I ever be good enough for myself?


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  • 15 years ago

    by girlii797

    I have an idea for you. Try contacting your local kingdom hall for Jehovah Witnesses. Someone there can help you to get help, and to see the way out. They sure helped me.

  • 15 years ago

    by MidniteRain

    Wow...this reminds me of me...
    I love this poem...

    Hmm it's funny how you can love a poem that reminds you of yourself but you still can't love yourself...anyways GREAT job

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