Until The Day I Die

It's hard to think I have no say
In everything you do,
Surprisingly with every move
My thoughts lead back to you.

if I was given just one wish,
It would be to change the past,
For I have some feelings and I know
Our relationship would last.

Today I put the radio on
But with every song I shed some tears,
I'm sick of feeling so lost and helpless
For these dreadful past two years.

Yes, I tried hard to forget
After a few months had passed by,
Tried to laugh and party; joked with friends,
Went out with other guys

And yet I didn't feel the same
You still popped up in my head,
To the extent I cried every night
And couldn't go to bed.

I longed then to say the truth
How I was wrong to let you go,
I thought that I could handle it
But soon the pain started to show.

And now it's simply far too late
You're already in love,
Guess it was written in my fate
Long ago, far up above.

Yet I write this forcing a smile,
Thought I feel it in my heart,
I am trying to be happy,
Disreguarding my soul: So torn apart.

But that just shouldn't matter,
Two years, I'm still the same,
And I still quiver at the sight of you
And flinch at the mention of your name.

Baby, you were my first true love
That's something I can't deny,
And I know I'll carry on feelings for you,
Until the day I die.