Sometimes

Sometimes you wanna scream
but your mouth wont open
your voices hides
you want to yell, hide, release, RUN
but your body freezes

Something holds you back
keeps you silent
and you wait
and wonder

If anyone will care to see the torment, despair and sorrow
behind your eyes
If anyone will save you from yourself

Before you tear your body into two
Before you gouge your eyes out
Before rip you skin off

You look into the mirror
And though the scars have faded away on the outside
There still red and raw on the inside
Bleeding and pouring

I hate looking at myself in the mirror
I wish i was dead
The darkness in my eyes
Scares the shit out of me

The monster behind them
waiting to be unleashed
filled with rage, with fear, with sadness

The unknown calls
Are you going to listen
Or pretend?

Open your eyes and look at the ugly truth

No more lies
No more lies

I am NOT alright

*This isnt supposed to make sense. Its just something i needed to get out. It just some random-ish thoughts*