My inner self

There is a person inside of me
that you will never see
there is a part of me inside
that just wont let it be

there is a part of my life
that i dont want you to know about
because im affraid that if you see it
that about me you'll have doubt

this person inside of me
really wants to be known
but the me that everyone sees
fears that because of her she'll be alone

every single day of her life
is all apart of her act
which is to live each day with a smile
and show that happiness is something she doesnt lack

this person inside of me feels all alone
and she cries herself to sleep
she uses a knife to cut herself
and always hopes it goes real deep

she doesnt feel loved
by the people she's around
she walks her sad life
always looking at the ground

and even though she wants to be known
she feels it'll only make things worse
she feels that every second she lives
is being lived through a curse

that only wants to make her life bad
and so that she only cries
so she thinks she's worth nothing
so she only feels she'll be happier if she dies

everyone sees her
as someone who has everything and nothing to worry about
because of the "great" life she has
but only she knows how she really feels, and that she lives her life with alot of doubt

she would like to live alive
so she feels she has something to live for
she just want to live her life
and live it how it was before

before she started cutting herself
before she cried herself to sleep
before she felt so bad about her self
before the pain got way too deep

she just wants to live a happy life
whether that is dead or alive
i dont think she cares
because she knows either way she will survive