I apologize

I apologize for what I\'ve been trying to do.
And I apologize for what I am putting you through.
Through all the years that this has gone by
I\'m hurting myself and there\'s no reason why.
I love you more than you could ever know,
and I sincerely apologize for times when it doesn\'t show.
When we yell and when we fight,
I know you\'re just trying to do what\'s right.
Up until now, this very queer day,
I further promise to always stay sane.
I promise this because these things I do..
They\'re physically hurting me
But I guess they\'re emotionally hurting you.
I\'ve gone my whole life depressed because i thought I was uncurably crazy.
I think backward and realize that maybe I was just lazy.
I can\'t believe I\'ve accomplished absolutely nothing out of this..
but I doubt it will be something I\'m going to miss.
Four years of my life have gone right down the drain..
But now, I\'ll stand up, and hopefully release this pain.

**for my best friend, mary kate. Mary kate, thanks for everything you`ve done for me as you are the inspiration of this poem. I would be so lost without you, and ily for life.**