The difference

by Nelle   Jul 11, 2006


I went back to the psychologist today
Only to find out, I was worse then before
She told me that I have "Reoccurying major depression-severe"
And that I'm in the first stage of turning pyschotic, that\'s a lot of pain to endure

I knew something was wrong with me
But, I had no idea that I would have to get my medicine changed once again
This makes, what the tenth one
Why can't I just get on one that is right for me

You told me I need to stop drinking
But, that right there is my whole life
What am I gonna do if you make me stop
It will mess up all of my thoughts

That is the one thing, that actually keeps me whole
Whether i'm down or up I will have that bottle in my hand
It is my best friend, and it I will adore
So, listen to me when I say, let me do as I want.

Once I realize what i'm doing is wrong
Then maybe I will make it right
Until that day comes let me live by this sweet little song
And to my loved ones I will say good night.

(this may not make sense actually to alot of you it will not make any sense what so ever...so sorry, and i know for a fact it doesn't rhyme, so if you leave a comment please don't tell me it doesn't b/c i already know! but all poems don't have too..)

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  • 17 years ago

    by Tainted Beauty

    Hey,

    Great poem, it really tells me what you've been going through, and it sucks. I hope you get better, remember i love you and you can pm me if you need to talk:)

    --Steph

  • 17 years ago

    by Natalie

    Only to find out, I was worse then before
    [I felt like you could add another word in that sentence. So you could say "Only to find out that I was worse than before"]
    You told me that I have "Reoccurying major depression-severe"
    [In this line you said "You" maybe you could say "She" or "He"]
    I knew something was wrong with me
    But, I had no idea that I would have to get my medicine changed once again
    [I thought those lines were great. Mainly because you state that you knew there was something wrong with you. It takes alot of courage to admitt that.]
    Once I realize what i'm doing is wrong
    Then maybe I will make it right
    [I also REALLY liked these lines. I can relate ALOT to those. I loved how you worded it.]
    I thought the ending of the poem was strong also.

    See, it -wasn't- a bad poem. =P I love it quite alot. And, it made pretty good sense to me. And even though it didn't rhyme, you were expressing your emotions really well. GREAT write hun. =P Keep it up! 5/5

    `Taleee. xx.

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