What about me ???

When u left me
u told with a strong heart
that u will not leave me
that i should keep my hopes up
now i tell myself
look at you and get a grip
she is not coming back u know
so why blame urself
blame god blame god
the devil kept repeating
keep strong keep strong
the angel kept repeating
but what about me ???
what r my opininons ??
should i remain good or bad
u decide i told god
finaly he gave me my answer
he gave my sisters the most disasterous diesaes
he gave them brain tumor
which could not save them
crying my heart out i asked
what about me ??
he gave me that answer too
he killed my parents
weeping till i choked i asked
what about me ???
he gave me that answer too
by killing me
i met all of them in heaven
i got soo pleased
but when i found they were only in coma
i suffered the most
i actually died and they no sir
they played the fool
now as i watch them i see
them weeping for me
i do not care
cause they did something bad
for when they were playing
i died