So Why?

How do I
Do what I do?
Many people ask
And I cannot answer

A nearly perfect life
Down the drain
Alcohol an escape from reality
So why do I still go get drunk?

Caught
Stealing a green top
Fined a criminal record
So why do I still shoplift?

A huge dental bill
To fix corroded teeth
The result of self induced vomiting
So why do I still stick my fingers down my throat?

Stitches and bandages
Cut too deep
Hit a vein
So why do I still slit my wrist?

Death a statistic
Talented one of a kind
Friends left broken inside
So why do I still flirt with suicide?

I have seen
All these and more
So why cant I stop
Doing what I do?