The Body

How did I get to this moment?
How did it come to this?
I left home hours ago
Have I yet been missed?

My thoughts are flashing through my mind
Racing through my head
Please, God, Please
Don't let him now be dead.

Why did I do this?
How could I have gotten caught up in this situation?
Did I allow myself to be pulled into something I'm against
because of my infatuation?

I let some boy I liked
Pull me into that stolen car
I watched him hot wire it
But I didn't think things would go this far.

He was laughing, calm
He'd done this before
He laughed even harder
When I asked him not to do it no more.

He promised me we would be okay
That everything would be fine
I'd be nervous now
But I'd enjoy it next time.

He whispered that nothing would happen
I'd be safe in his arms
He stroked my hair, kissed my lips
And made me calm.

But now we're trying to comprehend what has happened
Staring at each other in horror
And wondering just what
Will happen tomorrow.

There's blood all around
Body parts look unnaturally twisted and bent
Broken arms and legs
A boy to his Death, we may have sent.

I'm shaking, shivering, freezing cold
Why didn't he listen to what he was told?

Somehow I climb from the car
He follows behind
I head towards the body
Scared of what I might find.

I bend down next to the body
Hoping he is still alive
When I can't find a pulse
My heart takes a sudden dive.

I can hear him behind me
Calling an ambulance on his phone
Even though he is right behind me
I've never felt more alone.

I start CPR
Trying my hardest to make him live
He isn't responding and suddenly
I have no more strength to give.

I sink to the floor
Tears wetting my face
They're burning hot and salty
I just want to feel his heart's steady pace.

The ambulance arrived
and took him away
Now we're waiting to be questioned
We might go to prison someday.

An innocent boy
Was ripped from his life
Because of our stupidity
His family were thrown into strife.

I wonder if he has siblings
And think how they'll never see him again
We didn't just take his life
But his whole family, women children and men.

I wonder what his hobbies were
And realize he'll never do these again
My heart skips beats
As the officer picks up his pen.

Just one moment of stupidity
Caused a world of hurt
And next week he will be
Buried in the dirt.

He'll never laugh again
Never see his friends
For we were stupid
And caused his life to end.

He'll never get a job
Never fall in love
because of our actions
He was claimed by Heaven above.

I'm choking in guilt
Suffering in pain
But that's a chance you take
When you treat joy riding as a game.

**Not True, The Idea Just Came Into My Head**