Please god, please help me

I want to exist.
I want to feel,
even if in pain.
Please god,
please help me.
Let me feel
what the world can feel.
Let me know that I can live.
You better hurry up.
My time is running out.
I'm growing tired of waiting.
It's taking to long when...
all i have to do...
one swallow,
one swift motion,
one last goodbye.
Then my nightmare will be over.
Please god,
please help me.
You better hurry.
My time is running out.