My Heart Is Ice

I hide all of my pain
I hide all of my tears
I hide my deepest emotions
I hide all of my fears

I hide the real girl that I am
For I'm lost and confused
I don't know who I am anymore
Only that my soul is broken, my heart confused.

I long to be the girl that I once was
The girl that truly shone
But I don't know where to find her
Away, she has flown.

I wish I could erase the mistakes
And wipe away the pain
I wish I would stop feeling this way
I'm about to go insane.

I'm worried about what I may do
I fight so hard to lift this depression
Why do I have to feel this way?
Is it supposed to be some kind of lesson?

If my friends could see
What I have become
They would be so surprised
I used to be so much fun.

But now my soul is empty
My heart like ice
My arms red and sore
From each painful slice.

But they will never know
They'll never be told
I'll keep this pain hidden
Til I'm gray and old.

Why I have froze
Not one of them knows
...And never can be told.