Two People, So Much Pain

Look what they made me become!!!
Why must I act so strong in the daytime
Believing that I am strong..
Believing that I hate him..
But at night I crumble
They turned me way older than I truly am!
I should hate them!!
I should hate him with all me heart!
HE took my heart and soul!
She made me realize that i;m nothing.
If I get sick, will she care?
If I get stabbed will he care?
They have ditched me.
Riped me to shreds deep within my soul.

It hurts to see him with another woman.
I know he loves her more
I know her cares about her so much
I know that he has moved on
If he cared he would of called me
If he cared he would of talked to me
If he cared he would of tried to stay friends
If he cared I would at least have a shoulder to cry on
If he cared now then why is he showing me attitude like I don't exist?
I grew up
You grew little
I became more of an adult than you
You still act like a child
Everybody changes like me...and you

It hurts each time you ditch me
It hurts to see you ignore me each time I give you so much kindness and don't return it.
I gave you so many chances
You don't care you just made me realize that i am just nothing but air meant to just to breath in and out.
I figured out that you didn't care when you didn't want to talk to me when i was so sick and you were busy with your grandma
I talked to you many times about this.
Yet you continue to do this.
I took you to Disneyland and i get no thanks from you
You just ditch me more
Am i meant to be used!!

They hurt me so much.
They don't care
Why should they when they made me realize that I am nothing
Maybe next time I get sick I will tell no one and ill just mysteriously die.
They won't care
They were my world
They were my life.
Now they are killing my life inside of me and killing myself inside
I guess people change for the better or worse.
Its part of growing up.
I did
And so did you
For worse

Drake...
You promised to cry away my pain one day.
Promises were made to be broken
Ari,
Our friends forever promise didn't turn out so well eh.

Maybe you won't notice when I'm gone
But Yet,
How can two people cause so much pain to a person who did nothing but give kindness to them.

*plz comment or vote..i put so much into this and this poem means much to me*