Scared

I did not mean to lie,
I was just scared,
What if you were joking?
I never thought you would die.

Hindsight torments me,
What if I had said yes?
Would you still be alive?
Or would you have gone happily?

You knew it was not true,
But you let me walk away.
Did you not care?
Or did it split your heart in two?

I regret that one small lie
But I was just a scared little girl.
I did not love you, the way you loved me,
But how I wish you had not died.