12:31

Time alone to try and think, quiet filling my entire being.
Echoes of the day pass by, dim memories in my eyes.
An outward sigh, an inner scream, frustration tears at me.
Why does nothing ever work out, where's my happy ending?

Another day has given in time, as I look and see the clock.
12:31, and nothing new, same old problem and no solution.
Grades are down, parents screaming, everything wrong yet again.
My heart is breaking, my spirit snuffed, tired, so tired now.

I lay in bed and look up, into the cool and ethereal dark.
Wondering how, when, and where I lost my way, strayed from the path.
A small shrug, a white flag, I give in to the pain and tension.
All thoughts fade away as I escape reality to dream.

My eyes open again and I shield them from the radiant sunlight.
A small gasp leaves my lips, I see untamed wildflowers and grass, stretching out to encompass the world.
Something so spectacular, it can't be real.
With a usual frown and small sigh, I realize it isn't, just a dream.

Walking along through the grass, fingers grazing along the rough stalks.
Eyes closed as I walk aimlessly, nothing wrong.
My sorrows and burdens melting in the warmth of the sun.
Slowly, my eyes blink at the vivid colors of the landscape.

Something moves at the edge of sight, and I turn and follow.
The person ahead stops and I move close behind them.
He, she, it, someone always changing, becoming people familiar and strange.
With regret I realize this person is everything I missed.
People never met, friends never made, the missing piece in the puzzle of my life.

I've questioned my fate so long, wondering what went wrong.
Now I realize I'm to blame, never made my leap of faith.
When you hide behind boundaries, nice and safe, you won't ever grow or learn to outpace.
If one wishes to grow, become more than they were before, they need to cross the line, take the extra step, make a leap of faith.

A purging sigh quells my doubts, and I move to greet my fate.
My missing piece wraps me in an embrace, and I let everything, pain and sorrow, hate and fear, fade away since I made the leap.
Nothing wrong, something right, a chuckle of glee and delight.
Is this heaven? I feel so good! The sky is clear, my glass half-full. A completed puzzle, snug and fit, wrapped in bliss.
Tears of joy slide down my face, as I cry to answered prayers, then nothing.

The fire consumed my home, bad wiring had finally gone.
The smoke reached my form, long before the flames licking tongue.
Only one who didn't wake, but slept and dreamed instead.
Later the doctor said that everything had been done, but smoke had destroyed my lungs.
They said I didn't feel a thing, just went to sleep and never woke.

People cried, then finally moved on, I was buried in the ground.
The only thing I regret is that I never tried my best, stepped ahead, helped ever chance I had.
Learn a lesson from my mistakes, life ends sooner than you think.
People are what they do, your actions define you.
So always do your very best, put in the extra time, help a stranger, just try.
Maybe you'll get your happy ending after all.