You that caused the fall...(for my mom)

by LifeThroughMyEyes   Apr 17, 2007

My world is spinning,
its turning upside down.
i dont know how to fix it,
so i sit here, not making a sound.

if i move in the slightest.
if i make a single noise,
the world will find me,
and break me like a toy.

it will crush my hopes,
end all of my dreams.
mess up my life,
mess up everything.

i'm scared to death.
i dont know what to do.
so i grab that blade,
just like a fool.

i slice up my wrist,
in an attempt to lose it all.
i hate the world,
i wish it would fall.

i grab that rag,
wipe away the blood.
the tears that rolled out,
in that red rushing flood.

i pick up the blade,
cleaning it off.
putting it away,
to hide it from mom.

she knows that i do it.
she doesnt know how bad.
shes oblivious to the world.
she thinks im just sad.

sad because of C____
mad because of dad.
hurt because of boys.
so she pats me on the hand.

she says this too will pass.
in an attempt to cheer me up.
no it wont,
wait til i get hurt bad enough.

one day ill get mad.
and ill end it all.
maybe then ull realize,
its you that caused the fall.


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  • 11 years ago

    by alim

    I really liked this poem.

    keep writing.

    i read in your about me you recently stopped cutting.

    i'm happy for you!

  • 12 years ago

    by LifeThroughMyEyes

    Wow...thanks for addin it....that makes me feel really good! this is one of my scariest poems and yet one of my favorites.... my mom read it a while back and started bawling... hrm...but thanks again!

  • 12 years ago

    by SpEcIaLmE

    Wow luv this poem, its emotional and really gets the point across
    i luv the last stanza the most, it stands out 2 me prob cuz thats what i think all the time but yeah
    "one day ill get mad.
    and ill end it all.
    maybe then ull realize,
    its you that caused the fall. "
    great job, keep up the good work
    p.s im adding this poem 2 my favs cuz i just luv it

  • 12 years ago

    by CHOKE

    I only have yahoo.

  • 12 years ago

    by CHOKE

    Very lovely write hun :) its sad though, im sorry that this is happening or did happen to you. 5/5 love