So Hurt

It was over before it began
I want to be angry so bad.
Please let me cry just because
I didn't get what I never had.

Some days I can't stand you
For leading me on like that.
But I took the fictional side
Since I couldn't hold on to fact.

If I could replace my mirror
I'd throw it against the wall
Then creep into the corner
'Cause I can't forget at all.

I can't fix that I loved you
And I can't take back the pain.
I still want to feel like I did
When I thought I had everything.

I feel so stupid and hopeless
For believing this could work.
What fantasy did I live in?
Wish you could see how much I hurt.

I thought maybe my first love
Could very well be my last.
Hah...there's the child in me
I'm choking on my past.

Each tear reminds me of you
I think it will take the pain away.
But as they randomly fall
They let it linger and stay.

I simply can't express enough
Just how mad I really am.
Hurt, sad, frustrated at you
So few will understand.

No one's ever really seen me
At my lowest of lows.
But everyone knew my love
That now has nowhere to go.

I don't even want sympathy...
Just time to let it all go.
I should have done that already
Maybe I wouldn't hurt so....