Killing Me Softly

I wanted to live
A life more worthwhile
I wanted to thrive
And be more versatile

Instead I fell in love
With someone like you
Someone to give me a shove
Try something new

You said it gave you a thrill
A feeling you can't explain
Something only you could fulfill
Something of a different domain

You said you did it in private
Secretly consuming your addiction
Your body, soul, mind you did desecrate
You caused so much affliction

I watched you do it once
You turned the music up loud
It gave you a difference
That seemed to make you proud

You pulled the blade across your wrist
And just watched the blood pour
All the shocking pain you did resist
You fought it like a war

You spotted me and chased me
Caught me and held me
You told me it helped if I were angry
I did not want to disagree

You handed me the blade
Told me it would not hurt
i didn't seem to feel afraid
My feelings began to convert

Like what I just saw
I pulled that blade across my wrist
Without a second thought
I did not pray that I had missed

All my hopes, my dreams
Fell crashing to the floor
Now I hear a thousand screams
That make me cut even more

You got me addicted
To the thing i hated most
But it was the pain i inflicted
That turned me to a ghost

Now every night we sit there
Inflicting cuts on out skin
But we are unaware
Of the power lurking within