I Tried!!!!

I've gone back to self-harm
After being able to resist
2 month was enough for me
So finally I cut my wrists

I loved the blood and pain
Made me feel good inside
The razor really made up
For all those nights I've cried

I deserve to be unhappy
Locked up in darkness
Where no one will miss me
and this self created mess

I promised to give it up
But sh*t happened again
Just like the last time
I promised the s-harm would end

This time it is forever
There is no way out now
I am free to live my own life
And I'll make it somehow

Suicidal thoughts not that far
But I am strong enough to survive
And I think I will thank God
For every day I am alive

Copyright 2007 - Sabrina Stelmach