My Last Words

Dear Mom and Dad
These are my last words
I am sorry for leaving you
Saying goodbye hurts
I can't change the past
But I wish I could
No one can save me
Though I wish you would
When you find this letter
I've committed suicide
But it's been years now
Since my inside has died
I don't remember being happy
All I know is depression
And being Ana's Angels
Starving for perfection
Never was I good enough
Just wanted to be thin
Ana took away my soul
And my heart died within
So in my desperation
I turned to self-harm
But the only thing it gave was
Permanent scars along my arm
I thought it would help
To watch myself bleed
I wanted to feel alive
So I cut myself real deep
Still I felt nothing
Bu the urge to die
I became so numb
Could not even cry
I have taken 73 pills now
They will make me sleep
Sleep until forever
Till the say we'll once again meet
I will wait for you here
And watch you from above
I might be broken inside
But I wrote this with love
Remember this when I say
There was nothing you could do
I kept the pain a secret
So no one never knew
Here is my blade
Don't need it anymore
My wounds are healed
And I hurt no more

Love Sabrina

Copyright 2007 - Sabrina Stelmach