Why am I still here if life is useless?

Death is the only way to escape life.

I will write his name with this piece of glass through my hand
Blood will flow so freely ... rich with his love
And proudly I will say ...
"I killed myself for the sake of love"

--from one of my poems

As morphine tears run through deadend veins,
I'm numbing in these days...
-AFI

I pulled out your heart and watched it stop beating
Your body still screaming as your heart slowly dies
-Me

*from one of my poems.

When i lost you Dad i never though id ever stop being sad

And if i dont make it thro the nite i jus want you to know that i loved you all along

Stupid, selfish, pain hurt, thats all you'll ever get out of suicide!

Have you ever wondered who would care if you died?

Death was, is, and always will be a mystery to me.

After all, no one ever came back to explain it all for me.