Tryna hide the pain, but it just wont go away. No matter what I do or what I say.. it's still there everyday.

My confusion wont allow me to pick a side. I know whats wrong and I know whats right. I'm so sick of living this double life. But being wrong never felt so right.

I'm hurting inside, but i refuse to cry.

Teardrops of blood, they hold my pain,
Allowing my mind to clear.
The release they bring allows me to attain,
My presence without fear.

Safe your happiness for tomorrow
and today we'll drown in your tears

I just wish I wasn't me anymore...

I lost my copy of 'manual for life'.

I don't know why people wants to live longer? in fact, why we are living? just to run our ecosystem or to follow money, fame and satisfaction! what if you get all? will you kill yourself?

Please haters! learn how to love...

Why my mind is thinking so destructive! my heart is getting hard as stone. no emotions, no feelings and no love!