I want to kill myself. If I succeed then I'll be at peace, if I fail at least someone might get me the help I'm too scared to ask for.

The nightmares come
I feel so alone in my bed
I want the dreams to come true
Because then I'd be dead.

Now I know why they call it a crush,
because someone always gets
CRUSHED...

Wen ur lil ppl tel u bout santa claus th eastr buny n encourage u n ur imaginry frends
its all a lie its all pretend
as u gro up they tel u bout th light at th end of a tunel things getn beta n it all workin out in th end
its all a lie its all pretend

I close my eyes at night and dream it will be alright;
But as soon as I awake I know it was all just a lie.

I'm not Wonder Woman
I've taken all I can take
I am not invincible
I'm someone who can break.

I'm okay, I swear
I'll pick myself up from the floor
You won't see my weakness
What did you think bracelets were for.

-from my poem I Am My Weakness-

If he knew what I'm really like.
He would love me.
It's my cover he doesn't like.
My life is a double edged sword

Would you hold me and try to make it better, if you knew my pain?

I don't know how to make the feeling stop