Shes not alone...
But my god is she lonely...

You know someday I may get over being a freak, but you YOU WILL NEVER STOP BEING A JERK!

Numb...
I miss it.
Not caring, not feeling-
Just a comforting embrace
Of complacent illusions
Telling yourself-
It doesn't really matter,
In the end..
That you are better off
Alone.

So I'll laugh away the pain, and dry the tears from my eyes - knowing i'll never be good enough no matter how hard I try.

Cause messing up takes practice, and on that; im well rehearsed.<3

Suicide isn't always a question, sometimes it's my answer..

Just like a penny in the rain.

So lets pretend that the pain i feel everyday, is nothing. lets make believe that life is totally perfect, and i've never been hurt. and lets laugh, like out lives arn't totally and completely screwed up.

I smoke weed cuz dats my only escape from reality.. even if its just temporary..

My heart burns like the fire ripping thru my veins
screaming to let me breathe
but the smoke is so thick its impossible to see...