I'm hurting so bad inside I just wish you could see... I'm struggling to be someone that isn't even close to me.

No one can see the pain what we hide, they're happy for us to keep it inside, our fear is our own; they don't want to know. Why should we involve them; why should it show?

You never know when you wake up, if all will be the same, or if you'll be back in your dark place, again to feel the pain.

There's a smile on my face but I don't know why it's there... I put it on to satisfy all the people that don't even care.

I know it seems like I'm this strong person who can get though anything, but inside I'm fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering.

I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any of me left.

I don't necessarily want to be happy; I just want to stop feeling miserable.

Just another bad day, too much stress
My life has turned into such a mess
Pull out the blade, cut it away
Perfect ending to my day
Pull down my sleeves to hide the pain
Don't worry soon you'll forget my name

-from my poem Soon You'll Forget Me

If you look at me I'll say I'm fine
Though it's a lie most of the time
Put on a smile and hide the tears
It's been my secret for many years

-from my poem Soon You'll Forget Me

Sometimes it feels like someone is watching over.
saying. "oh she's happy again, we can't have that!"