Why should i even hold on anymore?

Living my life
in the remains
of my pain

I felt the hatred
you had for me
cut straight through
and make me bleed

Always so strong
no need for help
then you came
and the tears started to fall

Ready to fall
prepared to be caught
only to stumble
in your empty spot

When did it all become too much?
Councelling, anti depressants?
I feel so out of touch with myself

Life just feels so meaning less, nothing worth even trying to smile for anymore..

But oh god under the weight of life, things seem so much better on the other side.

I'm so broken, & that's exactly why i need you. .

Twinkle, Twinkle; Empathic strain,
I never want to feel again.
Trapped here in this world so cold
Where "self" is wrong
And "us" is gold.
Twinkle, Twinkle; Falling tear,
How I wonder why I'm here.